So last night was an adventure...
I did a show hosted by Isaac Landfert with Callie Burk and Matt Clemens in Indianapolis at this cool little theatre/arts bar call the White Rabbit Cabaret in Fountain Square in Indianapolis. Isaac was funny as always, as were Callie and Matt (though I'd never seen them perform before) and I learned that Callie did voices for Nintendo (when you heard Zelda moan when hurt, it was her... Yeah. Geeky hot, I know.)
And I... I was scared. I don't get scared before going up anymore, but last night I was completely out of my comfort zone. I was being me onstage last night, for the first time in any market venue, at least, and more of me than I usually am onstage.
If you've seen my comedy before (live, not just clips on YouTube) you know that my act is pretty much what I call “White Trash” humor: sure it can be cleverly written, and even cleverly executed, but the content isn't usually particularly original so much as it is presented in original ways. And I never swim too far from 'Dick Island,' as Bill Hicks is credited with saying.
Last night I did my geek act. I did it without the invisible wall of separation between me an the audience, the wall that says to my brain, “If they don't like it, it's not personal. It's the act they don't like, not you.”
Sure, I stayed grounded in my trailer park roots, last night. It's part of who I am. But I explored themes and aspects of me that I've never let out onstage before. And not all of it was magic or golden. But some of it was. And the rest... The rest was a good start. It felt like I had something to say, as opposed to simply being there to make people laugh. Don't get me wrong: I love making people laugh. But having something to say, REALLY having something to say, simply takes it to another level...
Time for a quick reality check, though: I'm not changing everything about my act. I may not change ANYTHING about my “professional stand-up comedy act” for the forseeable future. But I've started that journey towards something different, something more 'me.' And I'll keep moving towards that, slowly and deliberately.
But I still have bills to pay. And Dick Island is mighty handy, and a good provider.